its funny how things work out, being back with sam and all, I serriously dont know whats wrong with me, I really dont, I guess I'm just needy, or something, and besides the sex is good, damn good. I'm still not over kristen, started having dreams again, which sucks, means I dont sleep well, and when I wake up its like I thought I was really there, they're so vivid, so real, nothing seems emblished, or fake as with my usual dreams, its so strange, I almost expect to wake up and find her next to me, or for her to call, or something, anything. ohhh well, so much for that, you know what the sad thing is tho? a few years ago I used to listen to this overnight radio show, there was a guy on there that was talking about how we actually live a bunch of lives at the same time, and if you follow his teqniques you can actually switch your conscienceness from one to the other freely, I actually looked into doing this into one where kristen was still here. kidna sad, still crosses my mind every now and again tho, kinda wish I could find the guy, heh, doubt it would work, also would have a hard time explaining it to anyone I know, maybe just keep it a secret, like alot of my life is anyways, hell, only booker knows about myself and sam being back together, I think it'll stay that way, just easier, besides I'm getting better at juggling the doubble lives, I think thats all for tonight, maybe more latter, we'll see