so back from class, made it 3 days in a row eccept for saturday on account of the weather, so it dosent count, anywho, had a rough day today, parents were waking me up, kinda picking at me, took a pillow, hit me with it, not hard or anything, kinda floped it on me, well that didnt sit to well aparently, mom did the water thing, slaped me in the shoulder a few times, but things like that piss me off, I mean like really bad, I thew my keys across the room, kinda hard, curesed, dad yelled some, pointed, made me feel like a peice of garbage, its a good thing I'm done with sam, I dont think I would have come home for a while, kinda sucks having noplace else to go, oh well, I just cant stand people doing those little anoying things, or hitting me to wake me up, its about the only time I get violent, I mean I feel like punching something sometimes, never do, but so far I've broke the door unlocker for my car, broke the door to my room and bruised some knuckles on my dresser, I dont really like it, but its like I'm a different person, I dont know I went through this before, never a violent side tho, eh, oh well, I'll start getting worried if it happens on a regular basis, and in other news I've come to the conclusion that I'm done dating for a while, dont even really feel like looking for someone, I finally realized that I'm not over kristen, I cant even deal with what happend, and I dont want to put someone else though my moodswings yet, not untill they get better or the girl really understands what she's in for, or what she's going to have to deal with, but I'll worry about that when the time comes. I think thats about all I feel like talking about right now so I'm out